Nah.

Today. I think today was just a case of the Mondays. 

It wasn’t -bad- or annoying as they say Mondays can be. Last night I tossed and turned all night, and could not sleep very well.  I know I will miss this when the cats aren’t here anymore.. but dang. NOT complaining. Tashi just likes to sit on -all- of my sore parts of my body. Which lately (because of the usual chronic pain.. ha) is the side of my hips, both shoulders, lower back and chest. Not chest pain per say. The area where I was cracked – is sensitive to her weight. Which for some odd reason when she sits up -there- it aches. Aches all damn day after the fact as well.

I am not writing about this to make anyone feel sorry for me. I get it, the ongoing pain issues – some of which I know will never -heal-, and just general blahish of getting … fuck – older (which again, not complaining about. I know getting older is a luxury to some, and not a right!) .. things ache. It happens. But hot damn. The second I lay down with my weighted blanket – she sits. If she fits, she sits. It happens. I am usually just tired enough that I don’t try to nudge or push her off. So I guess in the back of my mind… I tell myself in my sleep to toss and turn in the hopes she won’t turn into a hairy fuzzy ball on my hip haha.

I am sure there are several others who deal with Chronic Pain. I deal with it the best that I can. Exercise (well working out in my house, no thanks to the pandemic!) ..and move as much as I can. I see people deal with pain in different ways. 

It doesn’t help me in the long run. I have this app on my phone called “Pillow” ..which essentially tracks my sleep. I think it’s full of shit half the time, but use it for the chuckle.

With the pandemic still in front focus- I think the weekends go by faster. I think we’re so swamped during the week, that by the weekend? We feel like doing nothing but relaxing. Then nothing gets done. 

I try to pick and putter around the house. Even if things ache. I’m horribly behind in decluttering BUT there are weekends that I just say fuck it all. I am sure others do the exact same thing. When you have 5 minutes to think, you do it.. 

I’ve been drinking lemon/cucumber water during the day .. kind of trying to weed out the Ginger Ale during the day. So far it’s been helping with energy and with the urges to snack. We shall see how it goes. 

Been kind of bummed today. Hearing something today which really brought me down a notch. Not going to go into specifics. Just drug up some old memories which puddled around like a rainy day. Kind of sucked, actually.

Been really enjoying this old series called “6 Feet Under”. It came out years ago, but I wasn’t able to catch it. Found it on my Appletv ..and I am really enjoying it. I’ve always enjoyed the odd stuff. Seriously.

Okay I am going to try and sleep. 

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